I am not talkin to you..

And she again picked her mobile to check if there was any message. Again and yet again. There was no sign of text. She was never ever this itchy and restless. Her mind and heart started another battle of thoughts, feelings, emotions and ego. After a while she picked up the mobile wrote a message, deleted and then wrote few simple words “was wondering if we can have a word?” Very soon the phone beeped. She frantically picked up the phone with the most fidgety and distressed look. “Dominos Pizza is celebrating its 15th anniversary..Choco Lover cake is free with every purchase”. She clutched the phone so tight as if wanted to rip it into pieces. She couldn’t. She needed to talk. Tears rolled down her cheeks as if her world had come to an end and one mobile beep could bring some hope in the murky dead soul.

Next day she woke up with puffy eyes as if they were struggling to sleep all night. The day looked much better; at least she was able to breathe but still the sinking feeling inside the heart stayed. She checked rechecked and checked her mobile. “Probably he would be having a low battery? Or he will be busy? Or due to network issues the message would have not  reached?” Versatile thoughts kept crossing her mind and after an intense debate within herself she decided to call. Already a story was being built right from subject to body with a firmness of keeping it brief. Some b’ful number as his caller tune, ran butterflies down her stomach. “tum ho to gata hai dil… tum nahi to geet kaha…” and soon the melodious tunes faded into the anticipated fear “The user has not answered. Please try after sometime”. “Did I make a fool of myself by calling and messaging?..huh..Am I the only one who cares about our relationship? Why it’s always me who is taken for granted? Why it’s just me who has to suffer?” As the time passed and the mobile screen didn’t show any sign of life, the soft vulnerable emotions turned rebellious. Ego creped in and her face turned crimson red. She was angry, sad, disappointed, worried and insecure, all at the same time. Her mind was pregnant with millions of emotions in one go and at this point she needed no one but him.. just him... desperately.

Yes like it happens in every relationship they had an argument and they didn’t know when that argument turned into fight and then battle and in no time a war was going on in her mind. They again had a fight last afternoon and he left home leaving the conversation in between. It made the matters worse. It took few hours to made her realize that she is missing him. There is something terribly wrong between them and it needs to be sorted out. She loved him and so did he. She recalled when it was the last time when they just clasped each other’s hands and laughed over every silly thing around them. There was no room for priorities, insecurities, tears, even disappointment and the biggest hurdle ‘self’. When did ‘we’ turned into ‘I’ ‘me’ ‘myself’, none of them had any clue. Last time he didn’t like the way she spoke to his friend he had just introduced. He was growing possessive about her. She obviously enjoying the lime light shrugged off his concerns. A few such incidents and a fraction of trust he had, went for hibernation and things were not the same. It had changed. She went ahead to sort out the matter, just to make it worse. He had made his own unknown plans to hurt her, to make sure that she still values him. And the tussle went on when one day things went way above their control.They shouted at each other, raised fingers and dunno when said so much which they never meant and was so difficult to absorb for each of them. She found her blurting that she would never want to see him again. She regretted at ther very moment and he left.She wanted to rewind the time and pause where they were happy together but it was too late.. at least she thought so.

Suddenly the phone bell rang and Nidhi immediately picked up….a familiar voice came...”Come down”!!! She didn’t even waste a single minute, picked her jacket, shrugged the voices from behind (some one was asking.. whr d hell r u going in this condition…) and she ran downstairs…There was him….Nikhil sitting at the door steps. He was all quiet….Nidhi didn’t know what to say too... it seems they both had just gone through a battle of their own thought processes… everything was calm as if something has just happened or something is about to happen.  Nidhi sat right next to Nikhil holding his hand tightly as if she wants him to know that everything is fine and there is nothing to worry about….Nikhil didn’t react and once he knew that things are in control he said….”I don’t know what to say right now… I just came by” And Nidhi with all her comforting gestures and a tear rolling down her cheeks said “It’s good you came. Its all fine.”

And then the school bus blew horn again and again which made them realize.. they r going to miss the school today. It was not a normal day.. it was the novel beginning of their newly found friendship.